still awake2005-03-31 00:30:23 -0800 personal
I've been drinking coffee during the week again. Even staying up all night, I feel as though I do not have time to get done what I want to get done. But what do I really want to get done? I have trouble keeping the same goals from day to day. I often say I want something, but my actions do not substantially reflect those statements. Reminding myself isn't helpful. I'm not losing sight of anything; it's the very desires themselves that vacillate. I tell myself, "Hey, this is what you really wanted." I reply to myself, "Meh. So what?"